As we go through this nightmare called grief, I have learned more than I could have ever imagined. And I’m just getting started……
I have learned that there are people who say they will be there for you, yet you literally don’t hear from them. Maybe they don’t know what to say. Maybe they think you will reach out if you need something (FYI-NOT true). Maybe they think liking a status on Facebook does the trick. Or maybe they are just shitty people.
But SO much more importantly, I have learned that times like this really show people’s true colors. I have learned that I can create deep friendships with people who want to be there for me. People who truly care how I’m doing and who truly want to help. I’m not trying to make anyone feel bad. I know everyone processes grief differently. I know that some people honestly think they are doing the right thing.
I am lucky enough to have too many people to thank at one time. I am lucky enough to have a group of girlfriends who will drop everything for a girl’s night and let me laugh my face off. Let me forget the sorrows of day to day life and just be free for a few hours. I am so thankful for that. So thankful for the people who take the time out of their day to just tell me they are thinking about me, or that I’m strong, or inspiring. It means so much to me and is what keeps me going.
If your reading this and feeling guilty, well your probably one of those shitty people referenced above. But that’s ok. I’ve learned to just surround myself with those that have my best interests at heart. Those life long, call in the middle of the night friendships. I have learned to focus on the positive in my life, rather than the negative. It has taken me a LONG time to get to this point. You have helped me through this process more than you will ever, ever know. And I am forever grateful. I will spend my life trying to be as good to you as you have been to me.